i have been told i am hiding from the bad things in life, i have been told i should get out there and face the world and let it know that nothing gets to me and i should be happy happy smiley smiley. i believe i am being happy happy...just as long as i don't have to look at what made me less than smiley smiley. but heyho life goes on...i guess there are only so many places to hide and so many times you can avoid people, unless of course you move off the continent, which is coincidently what i intend to be doing in approx 8 months from now!!!
maybe it is pathetic that i have forced myself into this mindset....but then maybe i should become a nun....both are possibilities but both are also a bit far-fetched. pathetic is not the word (and neither is grumpy)
im stuck in a loop of hiding happy or facing angry...i suppose ive got on to angry now rather than just plain hurt. there is a plus side to everything

and everything happens for a reason...i need to get this.
xxx