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I once received the best news...I hadn't lost my left ear afterall

Thursday, June 26, 2008

just thought would share with the world that I (yes me) went to a Bon Jovi concert last night and it was amazing. loved it. had a really really good time!!!
I danced and jumped around like a loon and the boring public around me stood there as tho they were waiting for a bus (the boring lot).
but it was a lot of fun and games etc!!!
talking of games i have to go to lynnes later to 'play games' and suprisingly there is nothing sexual involved in the act of 'playing games', we are actually very seriously playing games like small children (what a topsy turvy world we live in).
Well I think that is all for now I must go and be constructive (waxing, delivering leaflets etc etc)
have a nice day!!

Sunday, June 22, 2008

.................................................Fuck Buddy...........................says a lot I think, however, after doing a little research on the topic i have come up with this explanation...
having someone ready and waiting to have casual sex with.

unfortunately it appears that being friends with this person is not the definition of a fuck buddy, all in all a fuck buddy is just someone who you have regular one night stands with and there are no strings attached and there is no emotion or intimacy or anything of the sort.
so the question remains...what are myself and Daniel?
problem a. we are actually friends so immediately have many attached strings, however our friendship i think is struggling under the weight of the impossible task of trying to keep the 'fucking' as just that - casual sex (or at least that is my opinion).]
problem b. sex on call, this is not exactly sex on call. i cannot phone him and get him to meet me like a seedy call girl, trashy protagonist would, instead i have to wait around trying to suss out the situation - is it the right time to possibly take the conversation to a flirtatious level? do i pretend to act standoffish and see what he does? do i play along with his sexual inuendos game?
there are so many considerations to think about.

there is now the small problem of next i presume that i will end up in the same bed as him? i believe this sounds a bit too desperate (hopeful). i could always stay at Sarah's but after this weekends escapades i dont really want to promise her my staying and then stay with Daniel anyway...
there is of course the possibility of just going home but then i would be punishing myself...its not like i dont want the sex, its just that i dont know how to go about getting it....

i also have to think about what this is doing to me...mentally all is fine at the present moment. however there is always the problem with fuck buddies that you may end up liking them a bit too much and unlucky enough for me i already probably liked dan a bit too much before this whole thing even started....

so what do we call it? he is not my fuck buddy...would this make him a friend with benefits? is it ruining my friendship with him? how much of a ral friendship did i actually have there to begin with? will i always feel the sexual tension (or what i perceive to be sexual tension)?
is this finally a little too much for me to starting to think i have pushed this as far as it can go and we are slowly running dry....

but who knows....anything could happen in the next seven weeks...

Tuesday, June 10, 2008

just thought would update on the weekend's events...went to Lynne's friday night and cooked amazing culinary delights ie cake and pizza from scratch, in preparation for Lynne's houseparty!!
houseparty happened saturday, it was amazing we had a paddling pool and played games and drank and ate and all sorts!!
(sexytime a manner of speaking...really quite a bizarre experience actually but heyho)
sunday was amazing also; waterfight, cricket, little expedition to ashto court to play other various games with the 'late crew'. lynne and i chased the sunset to clevedonia (or at least we would have done if we hadn't got lost).
all in all a lovely weekend was had by all!!!
My parents want to buy a house in WSM...strange people ummm ooo and i have a temp job til monday doing photocopying, filing etc....eughph!!
well that is all for now, just a quickie with a lowdown of the weekend as i now have to go and bbsit!!!
must be off

Thursday, June 05, 2008

ebleugh ebleugh i have now finished second year..yay!!! however this means i now have to concentrate on leaving the country, which is so bloody confusing :-s i do however have a job now!!! well, sort of have a job. just a temp one for a week, however i may also end up with another job tomorrow as well, so who knows!!!
anyhoo, going out for scary pizza tonight with some of the girlies, which shalt be grand except for the scary pizza part of the outing. umm did pub quiz last watched SATC the movie on mon - absoulutely amazing defo buying it, twas fab!!!
umm what else have i went out on friday after my exams, possibly the most entertaining night i have had for a long time. we attempted a bbq in the rain, played ring of fire a lot and played a little game with a guy called Ed...was hilarious!!!
umm saturday, lynne and myself were accosted by some scary drunken men who were just generally a bit odd and Lynne made friends with the security guard!!
all in all i have realised in the past week that i still 'have it' whatever 'it' may be on the getting male attention side of life, which is always rather pleasing to know - i am finally cured from my mental block and hath returnethed to the more amusing side of life!!!
anyways must go and get dressed and go for run, have to go to the mall this afternoon with the mother to buy shoes. she had a small hissy fit yest and threw my flip flops into the garden...all very odd!!!